I've always been big.
How many overweight people do you know who say THAT? "My Mum & Dad are big, so naturally I will be too!". Yup, guilty. Me too.
I started doing WW when I was 12 years old, and even then I got down to my goal of 70kg. See told, you I was always big lol!! I was ALAWAYS a picker, always had 2nd helpings, and always was eating something. The midnight muchies were something to look forward too, and I lived for food.
All through High School I was picked on. It got to the point that I was eating huge quantities to combat the teasing. Everything was fine when I was eating. I got the "high", that feeling of calm, when I was eating. That is, until I realised I'd been binging, then the guilt snuck in, and yup, I'd binge to feel better about binging! :p
It wasn't until I was in labour with my 2nd child that it dawned on me. 138kg! I weighed 138kg! Yes, I was 9 months pregnant, but geez, 138kg!! Something needed to change, and now!
Looking back, I never thought I was THAT BIG]. I knew I was always “chubby” and struggled to fit into clothes, but I simply did not realise how obese I was until I stand here now at 90kg and look back. I really was HUGE.
This is me 9 weeks before that day in the hospital:
This is me in September 2003. 12 weeks after that step on the scales in the hospital. Here I weighed 127kg:
Oh my, it really is an ugly memory lol!!
After that, I decided to tackle the problem, and manage to lose quite a bit of weight. But, I wasn’t doing it the right way, or the honest way.
I started taking a pill called Duromine. I managed to drop 15kg in a matter of 6 or 7 weeks! But my health suffered greatly. I was up cleaning all hours of the night, I wasn’t eating (which taught me nothing about nutrition and healthy eating!) and I was losing weight in a dangerous and unhealthy way. When I saw a story about Duromine being the legalised version of speed, that’s when I decided to stop taking it. I didn’t realise Duromine is what truckies took to stay awake on the long drives! The way I was going, I could do a VIC to WA shift no worries lol!
This is me and my 1st Daughter. It’d be around Christmas 2003, and I weighed 121kg:
Another shot of me and Darcy. This was around Auagust 2004, weighing 115kg:
It was around this time I decided to ditch the pills and do it the long way, the honest way, the way in which I’d LEARN what I was doing. It was then I joined Fernwood and decided to combat my weight with a gym routine.
I’d head down at 6.30pm (straight after dinner!), and would walk on the treadmill for an hour, with a full belly to boot, and slowly walk away 2.5km in an hour. I thought I was doing really well. But something wasn’t right as I wasn’t shifting any weight. My portion sizes were cut down and I was exercising. What was going wrong?!?!
Once I started going to the gym BEFORE dinner, the weight started to move. I’d have a light dinner (soup & salad) then head to the gym.
Around the time my 3rd child was conceived I weighed 106-108kg, which was the lowest I’d been for quite a while, and was quite content at that weight.
This is me on Friday the 15th of April in 2005, just before my 2nd Daughter was conceived. I weighed 108kg:
After her arrival, I decided once and for all to combat this weight problem I’d had all my life, and joined WW & Fernwood once again, determined to make this the last time!
I joined WW on 26/04/2006, and weighed a whopping 121kg. Apparently my ideal weight was between 71 – 56kg. How did they expect me to get down to that kind of weight? That’s normal people weight, people who blend in. To me that was an unrealistic goal, and I’d already decided I’d never be under 100kg, let alone anywhere near bl**dy 70kg! It angered me that they thought me, this massive lard a**e, should weigh 70kg! How dare they!
Nope, I had it in my mind I was forever destined to be huge. My Mum and Dad were, so it was a given, right?
Slowly but surely it started to fall off. A month later I weighed 116kg, and a month after that, 113kg. By then end of 2006 I was 94kg.
This is me in November 2006, weighing 95kg:
And finally, a picture of me from last weekend at a picnic on a cold, freezing, windy day! :p
I currently weigh 88.9kg!!
