60kg!!!!

Not only do I want to weigh this, but it's currently what I'm leg pressing!!!

:D


Sooo chuffed. I started pressing 40kg, and now just clocked 60kg!

Haven't weighed myself at all, but will be starting a more serious direction starting tomorrow than I've been taking the last 2 or 3 weeks.

Burn baby, burn!!

So I'm getting into weight training.

I've been going hard for 3 weeks now, and can really feel my body changing. I can see my muscles are building, and my waist shrinking.

I'm really looking forward to the overall buffness - oh yeah!!

I'm also on a high protein diet, with limited carbs. I have a nutrition shake made by Horleys which is meant to build muscles while burning fat. I will be moving onto a more serious supplement called Ripped after I finish my current tin of formula.

I am enjoying this far more than any other direction I've taken to weight loss. My coach says I am very strong for a female, and was surprised how much I can press/lift.

I cracked the 100's...

and it's certainly nothing to be proud about.

:(

6 days straight of cario & weights. That's what I'm putting it down to.

I have to ask someone about that actually. If I'm doing that amount of weight training, should I be concerned overly with what the scales are saying?

I can't believe I put on weight after working my arse off so damn hard all week. It just makes me want to binge.

29 minutes you say...

I think I have that spare to look after myself.

I joined Contours last week, and so far it seems really good. I get up and head off at 6.30am, and 29 minutes later I'm back, before the house even stirs.

I am in a rut emotionally, and have been for a month or two now, which I think is my reason for my binge eating. I tried to talk to a friend about it and unload, but someone who's never had a problem with food really don't understand the dynamics of binge eating, and the emotional high food can give someone. For her, food is simply something she does to survive, whereas sometimes I live to eat. I really need to change that.

With all the exercise I'm doing now, I'm not sure if that also is the reason for my hunger. All I know is I need to find a way of getting through that "I need food - NOW!" phase and not eat anything and everything in sight!

Well, off to the gym I go...

Holy crap!!!!

So, so bad.

I have nobody to blame except myself.

*sigh*

Somehow I've managed to put on around 9kg in about 3 months.

But!!! I pigged out at the MMM.
And pigged out nearly every other weekend too.

ROFL!!!


Ah well. Joined WW last week, and lost 2.5kg, so hopefully will be back in the 80's before too long!!

Note to wagon: Get back on the road!!

Oh my.

Speaks volumes, doesn't it.

lol.

I haven't been bad/made bad food choices, but I haven't made a concious decision to do the right thing either, which explains the 3kg gain over the last 2 months.

Oops.

Ah well, sometimes life just gets in the way, doesn't it?

I've been back on the wagon (I sound like some kind of addict!) for 2 weeks now, and haven't weighed myself n that time. I don't go to WW anymore, because I've found a similar kind of club which only costs $2 a week to go, so long term is more affordable.

Will update with all specs on Friday :)

Another week down...

Another 200 grams lost.

*sigh*

Ah well. Beats outting on, right?

RIGHT?!?!

Name: Amber
Start weight: 93.8kg
Goal weight: 80kg
Current weight: 91kg
Loss this week: 200gm
Loss to date: 2.8kg

I just can't seem to get back into the steady weightloss I used to have. Am I wrong for expecting that?

*sigh*

My wagon has wonky wheels!!

I tell you, once you fall off that wagon, no matter how much you want to, it's just so d**n hard to get back on and get back in the swing of things,

3 weeks ago I made a decison to dump the weightloss for one week in leadup to TBL challenge, but ever since doing that, I've really struggled.

All this has done is set in stone for me that this is about LIFESTYLE. It's not about "having a week off". It's about enjoying the food I binged on, and consequently put 3kg because of, in moderation. I now realise this, and now realise I'd probably be having more success on TBL if I hadn't of had that week off.

I'm still trying to get back into the swing of it all. You think after 1.5yrs of "dieting" it'd come second nature, but that week off really has seem to put everything I've done and learnt on the backburner. Not by choice though. Like I said, it's all about routine.

I just have to get back into mine.

I wanna be a loser!!

So I've joined TBL challenge, located at: http://members.essentialbaby.com.au/index.php?showtopic=394071

I hope to be in the low 80's by then end of it. 80kg would be absolutely amazing, and a bit unrealistic IMO. I don't remember the last time I was 80kg! If I think hard, I would've been around 10-11yrs of age!

I'd like to see a drop-out rate of 0%. We all need to lose weight, otherwise we wouldn't be joining the challenge in the first place! lol

I'm going to add a ticker here to, so I can keep an eye on things and stay motivated...




I want to lose 13kg in this challenge. The top numbers are my BMI.

Back soon. Off to measure the body.

Mondays moments...

Sigh.

I really don't like the weekends.

I'm always hungry on the weekend.

Why is that? Boredom? I think so.

The weekends around here = house full of s**t food. Hot dogs for lunch, chips and stuff to snack on etc..

I've been good though. I made a huge slab of vegetable slice, and have been snacking on that. I also have a huge pot of WW point free soup in the slow cooker as we speak, so that should be ready by the time my tummy thinksit's hungry lol!!

I have a sick Cooper home this week, so can't get out and exercise. I wonder what the scales will say come Thursday morning?? Actually, I'll head to the gym when J gets in, bugger it! I will beat the batttle of the bulge...




One day....


Sigh.

Thought I'd put this here..

I've always been big.

How many overweight people do you know who say THAT? "My Mum & Dad are big, so naturally I will be too!". Yup, guilty. Me too.

I started doing WW when I was 12 years old, and even then I got down to my goal of 70kg. See told, you I was always big lol!! I was ALAWAYS a picker, always had 2nd helpings, and always was eating something. The midnight muchies were something to look forward too, and I lived for food.

All through High School I was picked on. It got to the point that I was eating huge quantities to combat the teasing. Everything was fine when I was eating. I got the "high", that feeling of calm, when I was eating. That is, until I realised I'd been binging, then the guilt snuck in, and yup, I'd binge to feel better about binging! :p

It wasn't until I was in labour with my 2nd child that it dawned on me. 138kg! I weighed 138kg! Yes, I was 9 months pregnant, but geez, 138kg!! Something needed to change, and now!

Looking back, I never thought I was THAT BIG]. I knew I was always “chubby” and struggled to fit into clothes, but I simply did not realise how obese I was until I stand here now at 90kg and look back. I really was HUGE.

This is me 9 weeks before that day in the hospital:





This is me in September 2003. 12 weeks after that step on the scales in the hospital. Here I weighed 127kg:




Oh my, it really is an ugly memory lol!!

After that, I decided to tackle the problem, and manage to lose quite a bit of weight. But, I wasn’t doing it the right way, or the honest way.

I started taking a pill called Duromine. I managed to drop 15kg in a matter of 6 or 7 weeks! But my health suffered greatly. I was up cleaning all hours of the night, I wasn’t eating (which taught me nothing about nutrition and healthy eating!) and I was losing weight in a dangerous and unhealthy way. When I saw a story about Duromine being the legalised version of speed, that’s when I decided to stop taking it. I didn’t realise Duromine is what truckies took to stay awake on the long drives! The way I was going, I could do a VIC to WA shift no worries lol!

This is me and my 1st Daughter. It’d be around Christmas 2003, and I weighed 121kg:





Another shot of me and Darcy. This was around Auagust 2004, weighing 115kg:






It was around this time I decided to ditch the pills and do it the long way, the honest way, the way in which I’d LEARN what I was doing. It was then I joined Fernwood and decided to combat my weight with a gym routine.

I’d head down at 6.30pm (straight after dinner!), and would walk on the treadmill for an hour, with a full belly to boot, and slowly walk away 2.5km in an hour. I thought I was doing really well. But something wasn’t right as I wasn’t shifting any weight. My portion sizes were cut down and I was exercising. What was going wrong?!?!

Once I started going to the gym BEFORE dinner, the weight started to move. I’d have a light dinner (soup & salad) then head to the gym.

Around the time my 3rd child was conceived I weighed 106-108kg, which was the lowest I’d been for quite a while, and was quite content at that weight.

This is me on Friday the 15th of April in 2005, just before my 2nd Daughter was conceived. I weighed 108kg:





After her arrival, I decided once and for all to combat this weight problem I’d had all my life, and joined WW & Fernwood once again, determined to make this the last time!

I joined WW on 26/04/2006, and weighed a whopping 121kg. Apparently my ideal weight was between 71 – 56kg. How did they expect me to get down to that kind of weight? That’s normal people weight, people who blend in. To me that was an unrealistic goal, and I’d already decided I’d never be under 100kg, let alone anywhere near bl**dy 70kg! It angered me that they thought me, this massive lard a**e, should weigh 70kg! How dare they!

Nope, I had it in my mind I was forever destined to be huge. My Mum and Dad were, so it was a given, right?

Slowly but surely it started to fall off. A month later I weighed 116kg, and a month after that, 113kg. By then end of 2006 I was 94kg.

This is me in November 2006, weighing 95kg:




And finally, a picture of me from last weekend at a picnic on a cold, freezing, windy day! :p
I currently weigh 88.9kg!!

I'm stuck in a rut...

And can't seem to get out of it.

I seem to work my a**e off, only to lose a few hundred grams. I really need to kickstart this body into weightloss mode again, but am unsure how to do it.

I gained 400gms this week, which is less than I thought I would! :P I thought "bugger it", and had dirty bird (KFC) twice in one week for 2 seperate party's for Darcy's birthday, and her Wendys ice cream cake. It's not a birthday every week, so had the week off! :)

Now to get strict, real strict again. I find if I'm off the wagon too long, I don't seem to get back on it, and I've come too far to start going backwards.

Thought it was time...

To drag this out of hiding and update my progress.

Ah yes, progress. What IS that again?!?!

I'm 88.7kg. Happy, but not too impressed. Haven't shifted much in the last 5 months at all. Only around 7kg. Ah well. What I'm doing seems to be working in the long term, which is what I want. I don't want a short term, drop heaps, feel like s**t kind of diet. I want something I can continue to do long term, and honestly, and with hard work.

I go to the gym daily now. Unless I have something on. It's a HUGE step forward from this time last year, where I was walking maybe 5km a week. Now, I'm doing 5km a DAY! Yes, I have no life, but ya know what, it's about time I focuss on MY health for a while.

I jump on theose dredded scales every Thursday morning, so will update weekly on a Thursday night!

I wonder if I can reach my first major goal of 80kg by my birthday?!? I'd love to be in the 70's for my weekend away in October! I'd be stoked with that! That means I'd weigh HALF of what I did in Sept 2003!

Time for an update...

Well, without much effort or tracking, I managed to dop around 4kg in the last month.

Last week I started fresh at a new meeting, weighing in at 90.6kg. This week I wieghed 89.9kg.

An 80's chick!!!!


I'm in the 80's!!!!

Yes, I know, it's not a healthy weight range, but it is when I've spent the last 10+ years over 100kg.

I feel bl**dy fantastic. So much energy. I can do things now I couldn't do before. I was jumping on a trampoline on the weekend, and it felt amazing!!!


The only thing that needs some major adjustment now is my self image. I still feel 117kg. I still feel that when I sit in a food court I'm the biggest one there, and everyone is watching me, making fat remarks.

I guess it's just a matter of re-training your mind. I've been the fat chick for so long, I guess it will just take a while to think otherwise.

Wish me luck....

Scrap that, lets try again.

(March 23rd..)

23.2kg down. Have had a SHIT week. Eating ALOT of vending machine snacks, thanks to the local hospital. Have also not gone to the gym AT ALL this week. It just seems so unimportant right now.

I hate to think what the scales will say tomorrow morning - wish me luck!

On the WW merry-go-round again...

Yup, couldn't get my head around a whole new program and way of eating with Simplicity, so gave it the arse and have gone back to counting points!

Today I weighed in at 92.8kg, which is a mammoth effort for me. I'm worried about next week though, as my period is due and I kinda let myself go at a recent weekend away.

I start Simplicity tomorrow...

"Worry is like a rocking chair. It will give you something to do, but will get you nowhere!"

Yup, no longer following WW. I'm now doing Simplicity at Fernwood. Why? It worked out to be ALOT cheaper than gym + WW.

I've had the last week off, which has been great. On the other hand though, I haven't made bad food choices, either. I still snuck my salad roll into a playcentre, I still have HEAPS of salad, but this week, I'd have a bikkie with my cuppa, an ice cream after dinner, things like that.

Also, I've been quite ill all weekend, and am off to a Neurologist. I need to eat more red meat, apparently. Living on salad isn't good for you ( I never said it was though!), and I need more protein.

I have no idea what I weigh ATM. hopefully the bikkies and ice cream haven't done too much damage. I'm currently a size 18, which I know is not healthy, but is a damn lot healthier than a 26, which is what I was 12 months ago!

Will be back tomorrow after my appt.

I've given WW the arse...

No, not the weightloss journey, just WW.

Why, I've joined Fernwood, and it's cheaper for me to do Simplicity than the basic gym package + WW, and Simplicity is one on one, something I don't very often get at WW.

I haven't jumped on the scales for 2 weeks. I've continued to eat really well, but haven't moved my body AT ALL, so am not sure how friendly they'll be. I can jump on mine here, now, but they vary greatly from WW scales.

I'll be having my fitness assessment at Fernwood on Monday, so will post my stats after that.

First weigh-in for the new year...

Start weight: 117kg (April 2006)

Last week: 94.9kg

This week: 93.6kg

Loss to date: 23.4kg

First goal: 80kg

New year, new program, it would seem.

WW are now doing "Super Start". Not exactly sure what it entails, as I couldn't stay for the meeting, but have a book to read up on.

This is also my first crack into the 93's. Hopefully not getting too comfy, and heading into the 92's next week. Planning to be an 80's chick by Mia's first birthday!

New year, new me...

"Failure is success if we learn from it"

Yeah yeah, you know the old saying, "new year, new you"...

This year, it's my turn.


Last year I managed to shed 24kg. This year I plan to shed another 25kg+.

I wish I could just pop a pill and get the same success others seem to have, but what would I learn doing it that way? What I have learnt along the way I don't think I would've if I was to rely on something other than myself and my willpower. Hopefully I will have more success because I've done it the hard way, the "real" way, not the easy way.

Well, I guess I should put up a before picture. I have one in mind. It's when Darcy was 12 weeks old, so September 2003. All I have to do is find it. It truely is hideous, but oh well, you get that ROFL! It was me at my heaviest, 128kg!!

It's funny though, when I weighed that much, I never saw myself as being that big, that is until now, being 93kg, and looking back. I was one HUGE mofo haha!!

I know I'm still overweight, but geez, it feels SOOOO good to weigh 93kg!! I don't remember the last time I weighed under 100kg. I can go into Target, grab a size 18 off the shelf, and it will fit! Sometimes the 18 is too big!I know I was 116kg when I got pregnant with Cooper, and 106kg when I got pregnant with Mia. My absolute highest was when I went into labour with Darcy - 138kg! Mia's labour was 126kg - not cool.

Guess I better go dig out that picture ...

*exhales deeply*